无题

不瞒大家说 我现在算是很努力地churpchurp和8share努力地要赚钱
因为觉得懒惰去做part time工 promoter之类的（觉得很像苦力 赚的钱也没有很多） 做网购呢 又懒得去理 懒得去开始， 去研究。

一年前 我是通过朋友的介绍 而开始玩的
那个时候 还有大家在面子书上互相按来按去 所以也不需要厚着脸皮要别人帮忙按进去
现在我觉得那个组群几乎是废掉了
于是我便开始自己要求别人帮忙按
刚开始是没遇到什么问题
但是久了 问题也跟着来了
虽然我本来就预料到一些事情 但是 当事情真的发生的时候 我还是会很不悦
从开始到现在 总共该有3个人吧 我记得的
一个（马来人男的）说 (y) but please don't send me again, it is disturbing
一个更离谱（华人男的 家境不错的 说: no, I won't help you, I will report you as spam and unfriend you. [我当时很生气 本来想人下来的 但是我还是回骂他不懂得尊重别人 自以为有钱了不起]
现在这个（华人女的） 是我朋友来的 说： 不要一直send给我 谢谢 （再加一个笑脸）[我心里想说 要不是是朋友的话 也许你会写得更难听点 按进去也只是举手之劳 那么辛苦吗 那天你有求于我 我也不会让你好过 等着看吧]

我明白你们也有权利享受不受干扰的社交网站 我承认我又不对之处
但是 我觉得按进去也没什么 举手之劳 何必那么在意生气呢？
有时候就会想 为什么有些人就比较随便 有些人又那么犀利
老天爷 真的为这世上而养了许许多多不同中的人

Real Holidays

Okay, I promise myself that I will update my blog more often when I finish my attachment report, in fact, it is not the case, hehe because it has been too many temptations around me such as watching drama series, be a helping hand of my mum, went back JB High Court and get back the signature of my supervisor, sometimes want do some little things for myself to eat. It has been quite a long time for me to do a dessert or whatever because of the attachment report, well, I post back and scan one copies to DZ already, so shouldn't be a problem now. Let's do what i plan previously..

Da Dang for the temporary, I am currently watching Inborn Pair 真爱找麻烦 and addicted on it. LOL
Chris Wang is so handsome and I realized Victor Wang's song is just match the scene. I like it very much :) So awed that this song is made in Malaysia as the 作词is易桀齐, highly recommend this song and specially dedicate to my dear Zack tan :

农历生日快乐 我对自己说

今天是农历七月初九 是我农历的生日
妈妈今天早上弄了两粒鸡蛋给我吃 本来打算煮面线的 结果面线坏掉了 （算了吧）

偶然没事做的情况下 我就google了一下 农历生日 手痒去网上算婚姻配对算命 觉得蛮准的
于是我便决定把它copy过来啦 嘻嘻

配对评述

他会是为你付出的那一方，无论你对他的感觉如何，他始终都会无怨无悔地等着你。

速配指数：●●●●○

男方生日：1991年1月19日 星期六

星期六出生的男子，是个不折不扣的个人主义者。他们十分独立，天生不喜欢拜托他人什么，凡事都会靠自己的能力完成。他们不希望成为他人的负担或压力，这种态度，也充分的反映在感情观里。

这一天出生的男人，能够接受的是独立自由的恋爱观，和情人维持如友谊一般的关系，即使若即若离也不介意。他们很懂得独立生存之道，也很能享受独处的乐趣。这样的男人，能够自己一个人过得很好，并不太擅於与他人分享自己的心思和感觉，所以尽管表面上礼貌大方，其实一般人对他的了解，还是不多。

他的内心世界，对於许多人而言，永远是一个谜。个性十分审慎的他们，不会多表达自己的感情，所以也不要指望他会甜言蜜语。对於他人，时常存有戒心，心防很重，所以经常将感情放在心中，处於单恋或暗恋的状态。如果你想和这样的男人交往，不妨多费点心，留意他的一些暗示，藉著言语和肢体动作上的默契，把握住机会，对他表白你的心意。

女方生日：1991年8月18日 星期日

出生於星期日的女人，是属於比较冲动、容易被激情所影响的人。这一天出生的女人，在爱情上通常会采取主动的态度，而且爱恨分明，一点也不扭捏作态。她们的喜怒形於色，有什么高兴和不愉快，都写在脸上，想藏也藏不住。个性十分好强，而且凡事都坚持自己的立场，不会轻言退让。

在处事方面，节奏明快，乾脆而不会拖泥带水，通常都很有男子气概，并不会斤斤计较或优柔寡断。这样的女性，需要的是一个积极乐观、才能出众的另一半，让她以他为荣，但是在个性上，男方的性格则不需要太强悍，最好能为她让步或妥协最好。生性活泼积极的星期日女性，喜欢在感情中扮演主导的地位，推动两人之间的关系，所以斯文但有才华的男人，是她们最欣赏的对象。

Random

This is my random post at which I want talk something about what am I doing and feeling recently LOL

ALMOST finish my attachment at all 3 places, i.e. Court (1 week), police station (1 week) and law firm-Messrs Syarikat Rodziah (for 1 month)

I will be officially free after 16/8/2013 6pm :) and enjoy my semester break 100% *lookingforward*

Even though I chose to doing my attachment at the end of second year and without close friends accompany me doing, I am still NOT REGRET because I am happy with what am I doing for this entire semester break and I find it more meaningful than previously.

Yes, about monetary terms, I get a very little bit allowance (as compared to people out there who ultilize their holidays to do a luxury part time job) and got to wake up quite early than usual, but I got something which I won't get it if I stay at home.

Let's not talk about what I got first because if I stated now then I will have nothing to talk in the next entry :p

Okay, until today, doing attachment is nice in the sense that you will know and face how your future life look alike, but the disadvantages is, it is pretty BORED. 

In both conveyancing and litigation department, all we have are documents/papers/books

So people like me who not really like to read things is freaking hard to accept the facts, BUT, I did try my very best to study all the files/affidavits/statutory declarations/SPA/Tenancy agreement/foreclosure proceedings/bankruptcy/winding up/accidents/divorce/adoptions/breach of contract e.t.c.

I can foresee my future...Okay no choice, I have chosen this path and I have to move on (maybe I just need to find many motivation to motivate and generate some energy for me LOL)

I guess my motivation will be keep thinking when will be my next trips to travel somewhere and go research on nice food and nice scenery, this makes me happier. By arranging the routes, thinking and calculating the most budget way to travel, I feel like I have fulfill one of my childhood's ambition-tour guide

Anyway, thank you my dear for willing to go anywhere with me

Insomnia

This has been the second time I insomnia in this week

My eyes were tired and sleepy but when I close my eyes, I cannot sleep.

I keep think of something bad happens recently and cause me keep pondering the same things until I stay awake after lying on bed for 2 hours. 

My eyes ready to sleep but my brain was NOT :( Melatonin refused to help regulate my sleep-wake cycle

My last insomnia experience will be when I still studying Form6 at home

When I cannot sleep and keep awake, I started to worry about tomorrow I cannot wake up, I got to wake up and go for attachment e.t.c, this makes me feel worst AGAIN.

Last night, luckily Zack was still awake so he can accompany me wechat and distract my concentration on negative thoughts

I believe that other than the negative thoughts on my mind, there were other reasons behind that which 'contribute' on my insomnia, there are:

i. feeling depressed and emotionally lately

ii. struggle with anxiety and worry

iii. sleeping environment (my next doors neighbours not considerate, keep laughing loudly in the midnight)

iv. health problems (getting mild flu recently)

v. Stimulating activity before bed time (online before sleep, especially asking friend to help me click ads, LOL)

vi. drinking a lot of caffeine (although people said cannot drink 8 hours before sleep, but I do think caffeine last longer than 8 hours, I drank coffee in the morning and teh tarik during lunch *servesyouright* )

Okay, now I should reconsider my living lifestyles to get rid of insomnia!

When I was in UM, I keep feel want sleep even I sleep enough up to 8 hours, but at home I insomnia, wasn't that really funny? Sarcastic enough..

Now, link back to the 'negative thoughts' I mentioned above

As far as I know about myself, I was kind a 'pantang person' where I really cannot hear about somebody passed away's news whoever the person is old, sick, accident or e.t.c.

Till now, I still cannot accept the facts that the person right in front of you now one day will 'back to the heaven or hell', somehow I will keep pondering what is the feeling when we passed away all that...until I feel damn scared

Undeniably, I become insomnia because of my emotion. Maybe is because of Lunar 7th month, it worsen my situation. (BUT, I was born in Lunar 7th month afterall LOL) 

From last week, I heard the news where one of the family met fatal accident which lead to 3 deaths and 1 injury [the deaths is a newly registered as husband and wife and their father, more importantly, I know their sister and feeling pretty sad and pity on behalf of her]

Then, the granny stay the same street with me passed away on 90 years [but she looked quite healthy and able to walk by herself despite her age, she can even cook to her family everyday, I talked to her before that and she is quite friendly. She is a Hainanese but I believe she learnt Mandarin while raising up her grandaughters until can speak with us] I feel sad also in this matter.

After one or two days, my next door's neighbour who just move in not more than 6 months I guess, the Malay auntie passed away because of breast cancer [although I not really can recognize her face when she was alive, but I still sad for her left especially she passed away on the first day of the Hari Raya Aidifitri, I know for cancer's patients, this might be well for them to relieve their pain, but for their family members, it still pains, especially for her husband]

Last Saturday, knowing that a well-known politician YB Tan Ah Eng passed away also due to breast cancer which expand to brain cancer, I feel rather sad as I know her because of Crystal and her mum.

When I know her, she was already a politician (it is about 9 years ago when I was Form 1) I went tuition with Crystal and Peiwen, sometimes when Crystal's mum was not free then she will send us home despite the facts that she is a busy politician. Other than that, she also indirectly help me by using her name to appeal for studying art stream in Form 6 when I was being assigned to study science stream initially and I did appeal once but unsuccessfully. Let's say if and only if I was not successfully appealed, I will not studying law and UM now. The point I feel extremely sad is that she serves the nations and country for almost half of her lifetimes, she sacrificed the time that she can spend with her family but yet, she passed away at this young age with pain and torture of sickness. OMG this is truly deep sad, my condolences to her family. When I read the news online, I feel sad again and again. YB, May you rest in peace, thank you for anything and everything even just a tiny matters. You such a good Samaritan, I am sure God will place you to heaven.

Lessons behind that-TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW

七夕情人节快乐

不知道是不是太久没见面了　亲爱的 七夕快乐 我是非常的想念你　
有你在　我真的好像什么都不怕
今天是七夕　我看着Google search engine大笑 但却真的蛮有意思的
像是有你在 我会少根筋 才不会里那么多 想那些不美好的事 也不会搞到失眠
有你在 坐公交的时候就不会怕有人从我上巴士到我下巴士都盯着我看 超有安全感地说
有你在 我就不用烦要怎样把鸡胸肉吃完 （但心里面明明就觉得很腻）
有你在 就有人可以帮我去掉鱼骨 去掉虾壳
现在突然很想念你欺负我的日子 哈哈

哈哈 我真的在等开学 可以天天黏在你身边的日子 但又开始担心我们会常吵架
我们要努力存钱然后一起到很多地方玩 然后拍照 我要拍这样子的照片啦