BFF gathering

It has been so long we last meet. Our last meet is in Sunway Pyramid I supposed? Today, is 4 of us, but is not Qianling but the little girl. Hehe, Qianling, next time when you back, we capture more more pictures ya, sorry for the time not ngam~~
Coming to the end of 2012, this meant that our friendship has achieve into the 14 years if we calculate from 1999 since we primary 2
Thank you for all the way support me, love me, concern me and help me..
I am sure all of us will be the best best friend forever and ever <3 p="p">
Jiamin, looking at this picture, I think you should not be so handsome, I like to see your ladyish returned, hehe
Qianni, eat more and gain more weight lah, too thin already!

I found myself downgrade :(

It is about the end of 2012, looking back, I cannot really recall what exactly big changes in my life other than have a boyfriend.
I must say thank you to him to come into my life and help me when I need..

At the same time, I do some self-reflection, I seems have downgrade my capability. It is so awkward and embarassed to say so. I strongly felt that when I met 2 of my previous high school teachers conincidently. As usual, they recognized me and asked how's my life, of course, how's my result. This kind of questions is typically question people will throw towards their typical good student in their mind. Yes, I used to be the one. Now, I was not REALLY. I feel myself has downgrade and I feel depressed. NO, I must buck up now and change something in the coming 2013!! Go~~

Okay, ventilate finish, time to sleep :)

LAND LAW

Ong Chat Pang, I finally recognized how "special" you are instead of prove what  bona fide...

This is the first day I study at home, may it be a good start! Got to sleep, bye 

从微博上看到很有意思的一句话

这世上最大的冒险，就是爱上一个人。因为你永远也不知道，自己全身心的投入，最终会换来什么。这就像是一场轮盘赌，你明知可能会输，但又忍不住想投身其中。其实，你真正需要的，并不是赌赢，而是一个能令你收手的人。因为最终征服你的人，会令你失去爱其他人的能力。

终结就是-爱上了就不要后悔 是吧

好久不见

好久不见了 曾经那么爱写部落格的我 竟然会沦落到今天 让它生青苔
从来不知道原来有人在关注我的blog 哈哈
天啊 终是要等到你没写的时候 别人问起你 你才知道原来如此
不然就当你发表了一些东西 隔天就有人来问你到底发生了什么事
当然 今天的主题不是这个
想说 习惯 到底是怎样造成的
为什么我写了十多年的日记 最后还是被忙碌的学业打败了
曾经我很相信这个平台是磨练我的文笔的地方 因为我想要从事中文事业
不知道是自己不会分配时间还是什么 突然间忙的一团乱
恳求老天爷 让我顺心的准备考试 张张都及格就可以了 和我的付出和努力成正比 我就心满意足了 谢谢你 虽然有点奢侈

熟悉感

也许这是巧合
天生是个非常敏感的怪咖
现在手上握着陪我一起念中六的电脑 感觉就突然平静了下来
我那不耐烦的感觉顿时可以放慢脚步
也许我真不该因为它的笨重而嫌弃它 把它搁在家里近一年
因为我真的会因为熟悉感 而心情变好
感谢小妹的不小心 （这好像有点怪） 那我才有机会把它带来跟我一起念书
顺便修理一下他的毛病
感谢我的男朋友 熬夜帮我把它的病医好
这样的夜
让我想起陪过我那段日子的你
谢谢你 只有你不离不弃 而我却曾经选择阁下你
这感觉就像父母对我们的恩情
不晓得是为什么触景伤情 是因为下午去了以孝为主题的马大灯笼节的展览吗
虽然才刚从家里回来念书不久
但是还是有点想家
尤其是当妹妹成绩放榜的时候 很想在她身边恭喜她 那就算只是小小的UPSR
虽然我每次都酸她UPSR把了吗 但是其实我知道这很不简单
小妹， 恭喜你 上了中学要更棒哦
等我忙完回家 你就要请我吃大餐咯！ 哈哈

Oh LIFE

Well, this will be my first entry for my second year in law school
What was happened in this morning?
A monkey went down from FSKTM's cafe's roof and snatched my boyfriend's nasi lemak
I was shocked even I was not nearby the scene but somehow I can see the exact incident when it is happening
I was shocked at that point of time and forgot to scream, I think I should put this way.
We thought we are the UNLUCKIEST one for sure
who knows, the other table who is having breakfast also face the same situation like us right after a few minutes

Second year is indeed a tough year I supposed
Everyday I was with BOOKS but I don't think I can finish all of it
Syllabus was not as light as in first year I started to ask myself is this the life I want?
As ENGLISH is very very important
I aware about that and I know that
But I just don't know what to do with that
I know I have to and I ought to improve my English by myself but I do nothing
until dailou even facebook inbox me regarding this matter, sort of emphasized
Now, I started to wondering why I chose to do law instead of broadcasting as what I desired so much before?
I think I still love Mandarin the most, I must try myself to buck it up
Criminal assignment, Land law assignment, PIL assignment, cases and books I am ready!

6/9/2012 Thursday Raining day

I only left few days at home, it’s time to back to University’s life

However, I wasn’t feel very happy because not bear to leave my tiger bear

I have been hug it to sleep every night since I back home

The other thing is I cannot sleep until very late in the morning

Cannot have breakfast with my family so frequently anymore

Got to face a new subject in my course, killer paper: Constitution and Land law

Based on my reading during these holidays I only get interested on Criminal Law LOL

Undoubtedly, I feel happy to back UM too because can meet my boyfriend every day

And can faster graduate and earn money~~

The other thing is, I can proclaim myself as senior in UM Law fac

Freshies got to ask us for our signature, it is time we do our part to lecture them how to respect others

This makes me feel like “Oh, once upon a time, I was kena bullied…”  Sobs L

Haiz, this Monday I unsuccessfully register for my ED (Elektif dalaman). So, I got to back to office and ask for the lecturer for manual application, it seems like will have a lot of fussy things. Ahhhhhhhhh, have to go to SKR

在一起半年咯

糊里糊涂 就这样在一起半年了
很可惜的是 我们没有在彼此的身边
但是我前天寄的东西 他坐昨天已经收到了
而且很开心地说
我也是非常的有满足感
哈哈哈
这一段感情 不知道是因为成熟了 还是认真了
感觉还蛮稳的
我那天才跟他说 如果下届奥运我们还有在一起 那我们就可以存钱准备结婚咯
哈哈哈
虽不知会不会发生 但是 我会尽力的
谢谢你 这半年在我身边
在我意想不到的时刻 走进我的生活<3

我以为

我以为 我的付出会得到回报
我以为 我们是共同体 但我错了 那是我个人天真以为 我们不是
我想 我是时候释怀 我知道我该怎么做了

考试

这10天没有回家
也没有去哪里
我觉得我整个人要mentally breakdown了
考试又不要跟我快点考完 我现在开始压力
真的忍不住 快点拜三
那我就考完了
轻松 可以去玩 去大吃大喝
然后还可以回家
放假两个月！
然后 图书馆还有考卷就会把我的男朋友还给我~哈哈
还好感刚刚打电话给妈妈 心情好多了
天啊 我竟然闷到这种地步 :(
玉玲加油 要考完了 再挨多几天罢了

心情好的时候什么都好

心情好的时候 就连字体都会变美
心情不好的时候 就像全世界都犯到你 看你不顺眼
所以 心想好事真的很重要
我呢 严重被你的言行举止影响心情
果然 爱情就是什么都介意 但是很好笑的是 最后什么也都原谅
不知道是我的问题呢还是什么
是我太认真了？ 有很多歌都说 认真的人都会输掉
不禁感叹 辛弃疾的 少年不识愁滋味 为赋新词强说愁
哈哈 别想那么多了 亲爱的自己 考试加油 <3

Somebody just not appreciate my presence in campus during no exam week
I think I considerate too much to be at KL,feel like back KT now
I miss mum's cook~
Suddenly I remember one of my friend said before "Never and ever in a relationship as it will harm and influence your emotions while studying"
Now, I think back,YES,it indeed.
Alright,off my handphone,bye

new ambition :D

Haha,I got a new ambition, guess what?
Dang dang, is passed all my paper in this remaining 7 semester and then save my money as soon as possible so that I can own myself a car~
So first of all,I must learn back how to drive because it has BEEN A LONG TIME I last hold the steering ~Kambateh neh Tomorrow need to sell those stuff ><

I realized the fact that, in this world, except my mum,nobody knows me well
You need to study, so do I,why it was seems like I was the only one have to sacrifice so much?
If you wish to be like this,then please don't be so nice with me
Why I just can' say NO to you when I have mood to study but you come here and pressurized me?
But you can simply say NO to me and you know I will feel disappointed because it has become a routine that I will see you every night
Wasn't that unfair to me? I feel myself like a not important person in your life, when you want see me then you come, when you wish to do something else, then I was not your priority
YOU ARE SELFISH!
Is it so called relationship? Why I got a false illusion that I was the only one tolerate all these things?

Alright,enough~ I got to prepare my Oral Test

My new ambition

Recently, I have a new ambition, that is~~ To buy every single law books that I have been used

But I think this ambition will only fulfill after I graduate?

LOL just a few days ago, I went to Kinokuniya KLCC and I saw Mc Gregor's book- Damages, it costs RM1991 I was just guessing the price is around RM500 something, who knows? Then I told Yeeling just now, and she replied that would it be FUNNY and RIDICULOUS that if I have this book in my house and the thief steal my book instead of the money?HAHA

 The next ambition of mine will be passed all the subjects in this semester :)

Well, have to talk about the experience that I witnessed the BERSIH solidarity march

Because of HIM, I went to that kind of political's event which is quite contradicts with my usual opinion on it (my stand is neutral on politics)

As compared to BERSIH 2.0, I think this time is better at least the injuries was not that bad and serious and they didn't harm the innocent in Tung Shin Hospital

I believed that everything happen with a reason, the police might turned out become rude, but they will do so might also because of the aggresive people who rude to them

As a Malaysian, undoubtedly I do support BERSIH and STOP LYNAS but what we do and protest does it really can change the things? I was not that optimistic on it

Let's pray for the best of Malaysia's new generation!

It was the first time I went to Petaling street there was so peaceful and all the shops and stalls there are closed

This weekend I have buy myself a high heel shoes, a dress for college's dinner, a sandal for my daily use

I like Phairin's high heel damn much, it is NOSE, never mind, I still can wear hers one ~ :)

This semester is going to an end and I was start thinking of my residential next semester

what if I can't stay at college then I think I most probably will move outside if someone want move out with me, but the problem is, I have to think about HIM again..

So, to make things simple, do you think that I should pray that I get 8th college again

It is beyond doubt that if I was being kicked out from 8th college, I will miss my dear friends at 8th college, however, if I stay at college, the BAD CYCLE of mine will continiuosly move on(refuse to join any activities) God, what should I do now? 

LOST

Sometimes I just feel lost in myself

I was like don't know what exactly I really want

maybe sometimes I need a pair of ears but you are not aware that I need it and cut down our conversation, and sometimes is me my problem that I can't express the true feeling of mine

or more precisely I should said that if I speak it out face by face then it will be higher possibility that I will be end up with crying

And I know, YOU did a lot for me

come to see me every night

you are the first and the last person that I text with everyday

and also even chose to be with me as compared with friends,brothers..

However, I really don't know how to react when I see your black face, emotional facial expression, I don't know what should I said or do to make you smile..sometimes, I just feel like I am such a failure

The most important thing is my TABOO to hear THAT NAME,please you don't mention it again except in certain circumstances,the joke is not funny at all

Sometimes I just wondering that why you take it as a joke but I can't feel it as a joke,instead I feel it was like a symbolize that my criteria is lower than her and you choose me was just because you can't get her

SORRY if feel like I am such a paranoid

Don't you know that the taboo among lovers are talking about their stupid-Ex?

I have a problem, that is I cannot accept people criticize on me especially when the things you criticized or commented are the things that I meant it a lot and cared about..

I really treasure this relationship, I know you will too.

So, happy 3 months for 1/5/2012

*hug* I love you

讲话的艺术，待人的态度

我自觉自己讲话蛮有艺术的 虽然有时候难免很直接的刺进去 但是我还是会适可而止

发现身边很少好的聆听者的时候 忽然很想念妈妈

因为妈妈即使不认识我讲的对象还是会很有耐心的听我讲

自我反省时刻

忽然想起，活到第20个年头，我一直没变的是是什么？

我想了想，觉得那该会是 我还是很坚持，抑或换句话说，我还是很爱钻牛角尖?

另外一个点就是 不管我活到多少岁，我还是个大喇喇 爱恨分明的人~这我很自豪，至少我没有被环境所影响，我还是我！

很久没有上来写些东西了

真是有点愧疚

对于这个地方，它好像是我发泄情绪的平台

以前是，现在也是。

只有忧郁的时候才会有文章出现

最近烦人的事很多

assignment很多 虽然要交的时间还有很久 但是像这样拖拖拖 最后也是狼狈

这个学期真的可以听的课不多 怎么办？好像只有tort & contract有用而已

以前自己一个人的时候 就觉得自己像男生 到最近才发觉原来我那么女性化 尤其是情绪上

感觉来了的时候 还是希望有人可以关心我，注意我一下

为了TITAS的assignment,去访问了马大中文系的郑庭河博士

在马大听到那么纯正标准的华语真的很新鲜又很开心

特别是因为马大中文系曾经是我的梦

如今，在博士的房门贴着的tutorial class form有chin yong xiang(我朋友的名字)的时候

我忽然很替他感到高兴

最明显的不同就是有得写中文名~哈哈

我喜欢佛教学说的“成，住，坏，空”虽然我不知道要怎么翻译

但是基本上我想大概明白其意思

意思大概是所有的东西 都是从有变没有 然后再从有变没有 真的我忽然恍然大悟觉得那是个cycle

人生有很多选择，会不会你以为自己靠岸的时候 其实是你掉到悬崖爬不起来的时候？

同时，我突然有种想法，就是这世上没有人有义务对你好，陪你。因为，我们每个人都是自己一个人来到这个世界然后自己一个人离开这世间。

是时候要去买这本书

好像很有意思~

但是就不知道几时才会到马来西亚了~

我回来啦

回家的心情真的很棒 虽然说我需要坐5个小时的巴士才能到家

但是那种兴奋绝对没有因为时间而把它给浇灭

以前只在家里念书的时候，考完试也是超级兴奋的回家 那时学校和家的距离坐车只需要5分钟

现在坐巴士要5小时，当然会更加值得兴奋咯（什么歪理嘛~）

这次不知道为什么一个人回却没有倒头大睡 反而望着窗外发呆

也许我在担心我在考场上写的东西 最后会拿到怎样的成绩

也许 也许 我也不知道 我不知不觉想起那天在存档里看到我之前存了没看的电子小说《那些年我们一起追的女孩》 所以就在巴士上开始看了起来

感觉真的很不错 至少我觉得比电影好看多了

也许是因为我是一个很细腻的人 比较适合也比较喜欢文字吧

在马大法律系全部都是英文

所以我有点腻了 决定以后的部落格都打中文的

再也不要因为想要锻炼英文 而硬撑写英文版的，那不像我，真的

看着看着小说，有那么一刻 我觉得我回到了当初15岁的自己

也许，九把刀真的太厉害了 可以吧每个人那个阶段的心情写得那么贴切

其中有句话“爱情不是我人生的全部，却是我人生的味道。越是深沉的痛苦，代表我曾经爱的饱满”

这一句真的象征一个热血青年所会说的话

但，换句话说，我还是觉得说的很对丫

只是，那深沉的痛苦要多久的时间才会康复呢

我很喜欢这一句： 第一个与你一起回家的人，你一辈子都不可能把他忘记

当然，请不要用哪种没情调或一点也不浪漫的把它想成家人

是的，我承认偶尔我还是会想起那个第一个在夜里陪我回家的那个他

那时的我，15岁很没脑的觉得回家一个人回不就得了

很多年前的某一天，我放工回家有个人发个简讯给我说过来陪我回家

我们一起搭巴士回家然后 在过马路的时候 他很顺其自然的牵起我的手来

陪我走了一段很长的路

然后在我和他家之间的中心路口分开

今天，我把这些过去写出来 不是因为我遗憾什么 更不是我在等待什么 只是我因为看了这本小说而想起了那段过去

还有还有，我想，我说过类似这样的话：就算你们彼此喜欢，但就是不可能一直当男女朋友啊。如果早知道一定会分手，为什么还要这么早谈恋爱？这样不是很没意义？

我说过类似这样的话，但是我还是跟他在一起了，虽然小时候的我就知道小时候的恋情是不会长久的

谢谢他就算我不想跟他联络但还是很努力的继续跟我联络，不然我想我们应该早就失去联络咯

如今，他身边已经有个我觉得很稳定的她了，但是每次他回来还是会想到要约我出去，真的很难得，谢谢你-我的回忆

现在，我很相信这句话：拼了命相信，努力就会看见美丽的风景。持续不懈的一流努力，就会看见不可思议的世界.

对，我在下个学期要秉持这种想法，因为我这次一定只是低空飞过:(加油！

一直觉得自己不够坚持
所以刚刚有机会就和988电台DJ在面子书上对话起来

我很满意他的答案：“不断回到你开始决定坚持的初衷”

嗯，回到我的初衷，顿时，我想不起来。这个假期，是时候好好想想了

在这种时候，就只能够跟自己说：你能做多少就多少了，尽力就好，不要搞到没得睡觉

毕竟有精神才是做重要的，不是吗？

Rest a while before continue my FAMILY-ing

hmm.. I like this paper's Introduction damn much

"When a man and a woman decided to get married, the expectation was for both of them to grow old together, to watch their children grow up to become successful and good citizens in the community. They planned their lives according to the needs of the family including their savings, investments, consumption, work, and career planning. Alas, there is no such guarantee in life, their expectation did not materialize and the marriage came to an end"

YES,exactly~

p/s: sorry for keep on COPY and PASTE recently(BUSY) hmm,even though I have a lot of ideas to wrote here,but ~~ Well, just bear with it,ANOTHER 2days:D

有些女生就是沒有男人緣

这是在面子书上看到朋友分享的，觉得很不错一下~哈哈，我就是under这个category的guaXDD

不可否認，世界上其實就是有許多這樣的女孩子，樣子不錯，脾氣不壞，條件很好，個性很獨立.
但就是命裏的桃花總不開，男人把她們當成絕緣體，永遠不來電。

眼看著周圍一個個相貌學歷不如自己的女人紛紛成了幸福的小主婦，忍不住哀嘆：我的春天什麽時候才到來啊？！
急也急不來，有些女人天生就是沒有男人緣，再漂亮也逗引不起男人的荷爾蒙，當然，男人們會說她們沒有女人味。

什麽叫沒有女人味?也許是看恐怖片的時候兩只眼睛冒出興奮的綠光；也許是外出遊玩時從不喊累，一個勁兒地往前沖；最快爬到山頂上,也臉不紅氣不喘.也許是一起吃飯時拼酒把同桌的男人拼到了桌子底下。還沾沾自喜,男人都醉倒了,只有妳還依然酒醒.總之，“野蠻女友”登陸國內以來，數以萬計的女孩子找到了人生理想，誓把野蠻進行到底。

人家全智賢野蠻是假，撒嬌任性的可愛才是真。要學，不光要學會皮毛，還得學會內瓤。當然，說歸說，更多的女孩子缺乏男人緣，不是因為“野蠻行為”，而是因為一些性格上的問題。開朗的女人討人喜歡，但只有也自然開朗也貼心逗趣的女人才更加讓男人迷戀。

舉個很簡單的例子，《紅樓夢》中的林黛玉毛病多，柔弱任性多疑又刻薄，可照樣迷死賈寶玉。薛寶釵樣樣出色，寬容大度博學廣識，可就是沒有男人緣。看得出來了吧？男人喜歡什麽樣的女人？可以自私一點，但一定真實一點；可以任性一點，但一定可愛窩心一點。

在戀愛對象上，幽默貼心撒嬌可愛有女人味,比起說話直.愛耍男人婆的女人搶手，即使容貌再美,男人還是退避三舍,
善於淡淡自然羞澀表露自己情感的小女人,比善於微懦隱藏自己情感的女人受歡迎。 因為男人其實也不是那麽自信的。對於性格上有壓力的女人，誰都會敬而遠之,但還是有特愛的男性吧,只是比例少了點.

有八卦命理說：一個人一輩子的桃花運都是有數額的，每個人都不同，有多有少。但影響婚姻的桃花運不會超過三次。能抓住一次，就可以更靠近婚姻幸福了.

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新年要到咯~还有六天就可以回家了，加油

马上就要上考场了
第一张paper-Kemahiran Maklumat
回家读书的感觉真好
虽然我知道我的脑袋还不是很满
但是至少有比在这里好，哈哈
嗯，回来考试，再过个13天就可以回家过年，放个3个星期的假
我对我自己说，下个sem我要更努力，因为这个sem我不是很满意自己的状态
弄伤脚就好像慢别人很多很多拍酱:(
新的一年，当然要有新的开始
希望每一年的新年展望在年尾的时候都能实现

很感恩我的buddy line毕业了的buddy还特地在我的面子书的墙祝我考试加油~
谢谢你们，我会加油的，希望不会让大家失望！加油