LOST

Sometimes I just feel lost in myself

I was like don't know what exactly I really want

maybe sometimes I need a pair of ears but you are not aware that I need it and cut down our conversation, and sometimes is me my problem that I can't express the true feeling of mine

or more precisely I should said that if I speak it out face by face then it will be higher possibility that I will be end up with crying

And I know, YOU did a lot for me

come to see me every night

you are the first and the last person that I text with everyday

and also even chose to be with me as compared with friends,brothers..

However, I really don't know how to react when I see your black face, emotional facial expression, I don't know what should I said or do to make you smile..sometimes, I just feel like I am such a failure

The most important thing is my TABOO to hear THAT NAME,please you don't mention it again except in certain circumstances,the joke is not funny at all

Sometimes I just wondering that why you take it as a joke but I can't feel it as a joke,instead I feel it was like a symbolize that my criteria is lower than her and you choose me was just because you can't get her

SORRY if feel like I am such a paranoid

Don't you know that the taboo among lovers are talking about their stupid-Ex?

I have a problem, that is I cannot accept people criticize on me especially when the things you criticized or commented are the things that I meant it a lot and cared about..

I really treasure this relationship, I know you will too.

So, happy 3 months for 1/5/2012

*hug* I love you