new ambition :D

Haha,I got a new ambition, guess what?
Dang dang, is passed all my paper in this remaining 7 semester and then save my money as soon as possible so that I can own myself a car~
So first of all,I must learn back how to drive because it has BEEN A LONG TIME I last hold the steering ~Kambateh neh Tomorrow need to sell those stuff ><

I realized the fact that, in this world, except my mum,nobody knows me well
You need to study, so do I,why it was seems like I was the only one have to sacrifice so much?
If you wish to be like this,then please don't be so nice with me
Why I just can' say NO to you when I have mood to study but you come here and pressurized me?
But you can simply say NO to me and you know I will feel disappointed because it has become a routine that I will see you every night
Wasn't that unfair to me? I feel myself like a not important person in your life, when you want see me then you come, when you wish to do something else, then I was not your priority
YOU ARE SELFISH!
Is it so called relationship? Why I got a false illusion that I was the only one tolerate all these things?

Alright,enough~ I got to prepare my Oral Test

My new ambition

Recently, I have a new ambition, that is~~ To buy every single law books that I have been used

But I think this ambition will only fulfill after I graduate?

LOL just a few days ago, I went to Kinokuniya KLCC and I saw Mc Gregor's book- Damages, it costs RM1991 I was just guessing the price is around RM500 something, who knows? Then I told Yeeling just now, and she replied that would it be FUNNY and RIDICULOUS that if I have this book in my house and the thief steal my book instead of the money?HAHA

 The next ambition of mine will be passed all the subjects in this semester :)

Well, have to talk about the experience that I witnessed the BERSIH solidarity march

Because of HIM, I went to that kind of political's event which is quite contradicts with my usual opinion on it (my stand is neutral on politics)

As compared to BERSIH 2.0, I think this time is better at least the injuries was not that bad and serious and they didn't harm the innocent in Tung Shin Hospital

I believed that everything happen with a reason, the police might turned out become rude, but they will do so might also because of the aggresive people who rude to them

As a Malaysian, undoubtedly I do support BERSIH and STOP LYNAS but what we do and protest does it really can change the things? I was not that optimistic on it

Let's pray for the best of Malaysia's new generation!

It was the first time I went to Petaling street there was so peaceful and all the shops and stalls there are closed

This weekend I have buy myself a high heel shoes, a dress for college's dinner, a sandal for my daily use

I like Phairin's high heel damn much, it is NOSE, never mind, I still can wear hers one ~ :)

This semester is going to an end and I was start thinking of my residential next semester

what if I can't stay at college then I think I most probably will move outside if someone want move out with me, but the problem is, I have to think about HIM again..

So, to make things simple, do you think that I should pray that I get 8th college again

It is beyond doubt that if I was being kicked out from 8th college, I will miss my dear friends at 8th college, however, if I stay at college, the BAD CYCLE of mine will continiuosly move on(refuse to join any activities) God, what should I do now? 

LOST

Sometimes I just feel lost in myself

I was like don't know what exactly I really want

maybe sometimes I need a pair of ears but you are not aware that I need it and cut down our conversation, and sometimes is me my problem that I can't express the true feeling of mine

or more precisely I should said that if I speak it out face by face then it will be higher possibility that I will be end up with crying

And I know, YOU did a lot for me

come to see me every night

you are the first and the last person that I text with everyday

and also even chose to be with me as compared with friends,brothers..

However, I really don't know how to react when I see your black face, emotional facial expression, I don't know what should I said or do to make you smile..sometimes, I just feel like I am such a failure

The most important thing is my TABOO to hear THAT NAME,please you don't mention it again except in certain circumstances,the joke is not funny at all

Sometimes I just wondering that why you take it as a joke but I can't feel it as a joke,instead I feel it was like a symbolize that my criteria is lower than her and you choose me was just because you can't get her

SORRY if feel like I am such a paranoid

Don't you know that the taboo among lovers are talking about their stupid-Ex?

I have a problem, that is I cannot accept people criticize on me especially when the things you criticized or commented are the things that I meant it a lot and cared about..

I really treasure this relationship, I know you will too.

So, happy 3 months for 1/5/2012

*hug* I love you

讲话的艺术，待人的态度

我自觉自己讲话蛮有艺术的 虽然有时候难免很直接的刺进去 但是我还是会适可而止

发现身边很少好的聆听者的时候 忽然很想念妈妈

因为妈妈即使不认识我讲的对象还是会很有耐心的听我讲

自我反省时刻

忽然想起，活到第20个年头，我一直没变的是是什么？

我想了想，觉得那该会是 我还是很坚持，抑或换句话说，我还是很爱钻牛角尖?

另外一个点就是 不管我活到多少岁，我还是个大喇喇 爱恨分明的人~这我很自豪，至少我没有被环境所影响，我还是我！

很久没有上来写些东西了

真是有点愧疚

对于这个地方，它好像是我发泄情绪的平台

以前是，现在也是。

只有忧郁的时候才会有文章出现

最近烦人的事很多

assignment很多 虽然要交的时间还有很久 但是像这样拖拖拖 最后也是狼狈

这个学期真的可以听的课不多 怎么办？好像只有tort & contract有用而已

以前自己一个人的时候 就觉得自己像男生 到最近才发觉原来我那么女性化 尤其是情绪上

感觉来了的时候 还是希望有人可以关心我，注意我一下

为了TITAS的assignment,去访问了马大中文系的郑庭河博士

在马大听到那么纯正标准的华语真的很新鲜又很开心

特别是因为马大中文系曾经是我的梦

如今，在博士的房门贴着的tutorial class form有chin yong xiang(我朋友的名字)的时候

我忽然很替他感到高兴

最明显的不同就是有得写中文名~哈哈

我喜欢佛教学说的“成，住，坏，空”虽然我不知道要怎么翻译

但是基本上我想大概明白其意思

意思大概是所有的东西 都是从有变没有 然后再从有变没有 真的我忽然恍然大悟觉得那是个cycle

人生有很多选择，会不会你以为自己靠岸的时候 其实是你掉到悬崖爬不起来的时候？

同时，我突然有种想法，就是这世上没有人有义务对你好，陪你。因为，我们每个人都是自己一个人来到这个世界然后自己一个人离开这世间。